Thursday, March 29, 2012

The Difference In A Second

A second ago your fingers were locked with mine, my heart racing, the room filled with your perfume, as i starred into your perfect brown eyes, an intense gaze that read every part of my soul and wrenched my heart into small pieces.

A second later i'm sitting here alone with nothing but memories of what was, holding on to the now fading pictures of what we used to be, you seemed to be disappearing so quickly with every blink as i struggle hard to keep every piece i could hold on to, and they kept slipping through my fingers.

A Second Ago nothing else mattered but you, we were free falling, we were as one, heart beating in rhythm, your touch and mine orchestrated to perfection, gradually ascending to a mind blowing climax.

A Second Later, i'm falling all alone and about to hit rock bottom, nothing to brake my fall but the hard surface of the pavement in full view, pain I haven't felt but could already imagine, my thoughts turned sour as i imagine the pending doom.

A Second ago you painted a picture of us, a future so amazing, in progressive sequencing, one that involved me, one that makes you out as mine, one with connecting dots that complete our story.

A second later i stand there with half of the portrait, once a master piece, worthless and without meaning as it was incomplete, unreadable like finger paintings of a two year old. I stared at this disaster and all i had was a fading mental picture of what once was.

A Second ago i was having a bad dream, one that involved me without you.

A second later i woke up in your arms, and watched you still and calm, and right there beside me, you rolled over, looked into my eyes and your words i can never forget "go to sleep baby, i'm right here".

Still Free Falling.

Monday, March 12, 2012

I Can't Make You Love Me

This post was inspired by the amazing cover done by Tank of the Bonnie Raitt's classic "I Cant Make You Love Me", heard the song for the first time at a friends apartment and the lyrics were beautifully sung and painfully true.

You can't make someone one love you no matter how much you try, love is still a mystery. it can't be manufactured, it can't be created, and contrary to belief it can't be bought either.

Its great pain to love someone when you know they don't love you back, you have this conviction that you are good for them, that you'll be true, and loyal and honest and be the best thing there have ever experienced......as true as this may be you can't make them see that, they have to see this on their own. Unfortunately a lot of times they never do and you are stuck with memories and well crafted images of the "what ifs".

In situations like this the best thing to do is to let it go, it would hurt and it would seem like your world is falling apart, but it would hurt much more if you stay and get your feelings thrown in your face daily.

You need to be with someone who would see and love you for you, their sun would rise and set in your eyes, nothing and no one can replace you, and on the scale of 1-10 in importance you are 20, you are the first person they want to share the good/bad with (not Twitter or BB Status...lol) their very existence is enhanced, completed and is meaningful cause you are there, someone who would tell you "baby, when all my dreams come through, you're the one i want standing by my side".

Love like the one God Has for us, irrespective of what you've done, where you are coming from, where you are heading, and what your future holds, its there, its sure and its true

Never Settle...

Tank - I Can't Make You Love Me